Vision and Darkness

Hello all! I’d like to start this Barker update with a devotion I recently read from Oswald Chambers “My utmost for His highest”

“”When the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abram, and behold, horror and great darkness fell upon him” (Genesis 15:12)

Whenever God gives a vision to a Christian, it is as if He puts him in “the shadow of His hand”(Isaiah 49:2).  The saint’s duty is to be still and listen. There is a “darkness” that comes from too much light–that is the time to listen.   The story of Abram and Hagar in Genesis 16 is an excellent example of listening to so-called good advice during a time of darkness, rather than waiting for God to send the light.  When God gives you a vision and darkness follows, wait. God will bring the vision He has given you to reality in your life if you will wait on His timing.  Never try to help God fulfill His word. Abram went through thirteen years of silence, but in those years all of his self-sufficiency was destroyed. He grew past the point of relying on his own common sense.  Those years of silence were a time of discipline, not a period of God’s displeasure.  THere is never any need to pretend that your life is filled with joy and confidence; just wait upon God and be grounded in Him(see Isaiah 50:10-11).

Do I trust at all in the flesh? Or have I learned to go beyond all confidence in myself and other people of God? Do I trust in books and prayers or other joys in my life? Or have I placed my confidence in God Himself, not in His blessings? “I am Almighty God…”-El-Shaddai, the All-Powerful God (Genesis 17:1). The reason we are all being disciplined is that we will know God is real.  As soon as God becomes real to us, people pale by comparison, becoming shadows of reality.   Nothing that other saints do or say can ever upset the one who is built on God.”

So God gave Andy and I a vision about a year ago.  Since then, we have taken steps to work toward this vision, but are still waiting on God to bring about necessary changes to bring this vision to reality.   It has been a long year and at times we have lost sight of the vision, but God keeps bringing it back to us.   We recently began to get a little discouraged and wondered when and if things were ever going to happen.  Shortly after this time, I read this devotion which immediately spoke volumes to Andy and I.   We realize that God has placed this vision on our hearts, but we have no idea when it might come to be.  We liken it to being in the darkness Oswald talks about.  Our job is to remain faithful in working toward the vision, never forgetting what He originally laid on our hearts, and to continue to trust in Him.  It could be weeks, months, and even years before we see it come to reality, but we are encouraged to hang in there and wait on His timing.  Only then can it be what He intends.  So we thank God for even giving us a vision in the first place(which we hope we can share with you all one day) and giving us eyes to see and we will look at this time as a season of discipline, praying we only look to Him and not to others for security in our journey.

On a personal note, I have  recently become so excited about some ideas I have had  both on a creative level  and a lifestyle level, concerning my passion  for natural child-birthing and everything that it involves.  I am still doing a lot of research, praying,  exploring, and playing with ideas, but I would love for at least one of them to come to fruition some day.  I am just excited about the fact that I have my creative side showing itself again after a long hibernation during these busy years of being a wife and mother.   🙂 If great ideas and excitement is all that comes from this, it will be worth it.  And maybe this will be just another time that I have to be patient and wait for Gods timing.  He sure is building patience in me, but I admit I need some discipline in my life. 😛

So in short….We wait!!!

…and while we wait…..we enjoy the blessings God has given us during the here and now, which includes our beautiful daughters and here a some pics so that you can enjoy them too. 😉


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